However, instead of excitement, a sense of impending doom crept up on me. Something about the whole situation seemed creepy, strange. She wasn't friendly and she definitely didn't smile. She seemed desperate for someone, anyone to take the position. Being an optimistic and naive 22 year old, I accepted the job.
On what was to be my first day, I woke up early and caught the L-train heading to the south side of Chicago. As the train headed south, I watched the racial dynamic change. Slowly, but surely, all of the white passengers got off the train. By the time I arrived at my stop, I was the only white person in sight.
I received a key and climbed the stairs to the 3rd floor. Anxiously, I unlocked the door and peeked in. It was an old building, erected in the 1890s, and the room had a tall ceiling, large windows and wooden floor. At the time it was built, the room had probably been gorgeous. But now it was in a state of complete chaos and neglect. In what was to be my classroom in a matter of hours, lay stacks of old papers and worn books and heaps of broken desks and chairs. After spending the entire day clearing out the room, I began to search for supplies and desks and chairs in decent condition. Another teacher led me to the "supply cabinet". When I saw that there was no paper, no chalk, no text books, no teachers editions, no tape and no staplers, I began to panic. Except for a single box of scissors and some pencils, the cabinet was completely empty. I rushed down to the principal's office to ask if I could use the copy machine and computer in her office. I was told that teachers did not have access to these machines. How were teachers supposed to teach the students without any materials?
Thankfully, my family and friends donated some supplies and pooled their money together to buy me a used laptop and a tiny copy machine.
On September 15th, 2 weeks after the school year had officially begun, I stood at the front of my 4th/5th grade split classroom and introduced myself to my new students. 34 pairs of brown eyes looked me up and down.
The hardest year of my life, working as a Teach for America teacher at a failing inner-city school, had begun.